Time to tidy up the wardrobe

I have put away all the pregnancy clothes. It was time. I have folded them tenderly hoping to use them again sometime. I’m not sure if it feels like ages when I was with the womb or if it feels like it was like yesterday. It depends. Contradictory thoughts flow in my mind right now. And so I’m packing all those warm memories along with the clothes. It was great to be pregnant, magical, like being in a fairytale. But like in any story with some hard times too. Of course I would like to go through it all again, someday, but simply not yet.

Now all I can think of is Lucia. I can’t imagine a life without her. It’s amazing how much you get from these little creatures. I have my ups and downs, but whenever I’m not feeling my best I look at my angel, and somehow the sorrow washes away.

We started with the bottle a couple of weeks ago. I don’t know what happened, but out of a sudden I run-off of milk. I drink a lot, and insist on breastfeeding her, but there isn’t enough. She still latches right on, but gets all stressed as she doesn’t get much milk. And I can’t help feeling guilty. I am really sorry I can’t nurse her anymore. Not only for the benefits of the mother’s milk, but because it was a special moment between us, and also it was so easy and comfy. Now we are struggling with the bottles that have to be cleaned, sterilized, ready… But at least she wasn’t difficult with that; it seems like she didn’t mind the change. As long as she gets milk.

Lucia, I am so sorry I can’t nurse you anymore. I’ll keep trying, but I think we’ll have to move on. LU

14 Juillet

Today we were invited to a reception at the French Embassy in Prague.

Food, drinks, and a speech. Even the Czech Prime Minister was there; and so were we!! Many french living in the Czech Rep though...

My baby and the boys enjoying the reception.

The 14th July symbolizes the end of the Monarchy and the beginning of what is now called the First French Republic. The Bastille, a prison at the time, was stormed on July 14, 1789. This event came to represent the end of the king's power and the transfer of power to the people.

Thanks!!!

We had a great time in MADRID, thank you all!!

Ready to go back?

Summer days in Madrid are over now. Feels strange. I dont want to pack, i dont want to leave all this behind, but we have to go back to our home. I'm all messed up now. "Should i stay or should i go?" like the Clash said.

We've had a great time here, although is not always easy to live again with mom and dad, but still i'm not sure if i want to leave.

My life is in Prague i know, but maybe is time to move on. All this contradictory thoughts in my mind are driving me mad. I guess when i will be back home, everything will be fine again. I really hope the sadness i'm sinking in will dissapear. I'm going to miss you all so much. A month just went by so fast...

Lucia is 4 months now, and she's still the most beautifull baby to our eyes. She's all tunned and loves the swimming pool.