Perfect mom?

Thinking back to my life so far, there are certain things I’m not proud of. I haven’t been "good" all the time, I know, and I wish sometimes I had chosen differently. But we can’t change the past, can we? Free will we are given, and although we dont mean to do wrong, we do.

Now, I would like to be a good mom for Lucia. A perfect mom? Naaa i dont think so. There’s no “how to” so I’ll just have to follow my instinct and try to do the best I can. I would do anything for our little angel. I think about all these times when my mom used to tell me “one day, as mom you will understand”. I think I know now what she meant.

How to be sure you are doing the right thing for them? Like, should I take her on my arms every time she cries? Or should I let her cry a bit? Hard to say. Maybe is this special bond between a mom and her baby; but when she cries, my whole body responds. I just can’t ignore that!

These little ones, they can’t speak, so the only way to draw our attention is by crying. Somehow, you learn to distinguish if they are hungry, if I they need a clean diaper, if the are cold or if they simply need a hug for comfort. If you take some time, you will learn to catch these signs. But (of course) sometimes you’re tired, and need some rest – difficult to make a new born understand this. So it’s not always easy... but that’s the way things are!

But then you know, they smile back to you and you see that they are happy, and none of the rest matters anymore.

Lucia is starting to be more active now; like she’s aware of her hands and would like to start using them. Here she’s playing, well it looks more like a box combat, but still cute.

Behind blue eyes

Lucia is 1 month. Time just flies flies flies!!!

She’s gorgeous, what else can I say! Breastfeeding is a success now, and I’m really happy about it. She’s healthy, gaining weight and looks great. She has big appetite and now she’s over the 4 kilos. She follows you with her big blue eyes and she smiles very often. She also cries a lot, mainly in the evening; maybe she doesn’t like the fact that the day is over… Mmmm

During the day she’s fine, and loves to go out to the park. We go to Hlavickovy sady, nice park just by the corner. Guess she just like being taken for a walk in her flashy fashion orange pushchair. We’ll go now as soon as this post is posted!

The neighbors next door just moved in, young couple with a baby girl. I can hear them now. Oh my, these walls are quite thin!!! Hope it will be fine! Their girl is a year older and they both share the same name… how about that? Though pronounced in Czech sounds slightly different.

Time to get some sunshine in our b*** i mean faces. Ciao!