I will never be 16 again…

And that’s a fate baby! It was year 1993. Bill Clinton succeeded George H.W. Bush as the 42nd President of the United States, and Václav Havel was elected President of the Czech Republic. I didn’t know about this at the time. Guess I simply didn’t care; how was I supposed to know that I would move to Prague 12 years later. Playwriter and politician, he was the tenth and last President of Czechoslovakia (1989–93) and the first President of the Czech Republic (1993–2003). In February a van bomb parked below the North Tower of the World Trade Center exploded, killing 6 and injuring many more. Who would have thought that 8 years later it would disappear for ever… scary world right? :(

On that same year, M. Indurain won “le tour de France ‘93” for the 3rd time; two more where to come. The Maastricht Treaty took effect, formally establishing the European Union and leading to the creation of the euro. Oh yes I remember, at that time I had pesetas in my pockets, not many though. Enough to get some kalimocho or beer “minis” with the friends. Kalimocho is a mix of coke and wine; at that time it tasted just fine and was a fairly cheap way to get drunk. We could spend hours drinking, joggling in the streets and laughing at life; not really worrying about the future ahead. Should we worry now?

Later on that year Brandon Lee was accidentally killed during the filming of "The Crow". It became one of my favorite films when it came out the next year. Absolutely stunning. The OST is simply awesome, The Cure, The Jesus and Mary Chain, Rage Against the Machine, Stone Temple Pilots…

We all got revolted with the film “In the Name of the Father” that came out that year. We knew about injustice in the world, and at the time “young” and “rebels” - like we thought we were - it was time to show our discontent with society. We participated in demonstrations, and sometimes got into some trouble (nothing serious), but the truth is, we had no idea of what a real fight meant. The world out there was in constant fight: Yugoslav wars, Algerian Civil War, Civil war in Afghanistan, Israeli-Palestinian conflict...

Oh don't talk of love" the shadows purr
Murmuring me away from you
"Don't talk of worlds that never were
The end is all that's ever true
There's nothing you can ever say
Nothing you can ever do... "
Still every night I burn
Every night I scream your name
Every night I burn
Every night the dream's the same
Every night I burn
Waiting for my only friend
Every night I burn
Waiting for the world to end
------ Burn - The cure

Don't know...

I don’t know why, but I suddenly feel I need to see you, to talk to you, to…

Lately I can’t stop thinking about that chapel in the middle of nowhere; the hazy windows, our endless conversations and time slipping through our fingers. We wanted to stop time, but it was time that stopped us.

People automatically look away when their eyes meet with someone else’s. But I always liked when my eyes met yours. I felt hypnotized, just couldn’t look anywhere else. There’s always been “this” something with you, I can’t resist. I knew the first time I saw you, but I was not sure what it meant then. Not that I know now; but I don’t care what it is; as long as it keeps me feeling this way.

I close my eyes; I can see you, standing in front of me, smiling. I can’t help smiling back. How many times I have sought for that look. Then, the images in my mind vanish like smoke and when I open my eyes, you’re gone.

Was it destiny that made me sit near you in that first diner? Was it destiny that pushed my lips accidentally onto yours? Do you believe we were meant to be?