Lucia is born

It was Monday 3rd March. Somehow I knew the time had come, but had my doubts.

At 12h00 we left for the hospital and once there, I knew I was not going back home. Straight for check up; 4 cm opened already. The contractions got more and more regular, so far not very painful. The monitoring seemed ok although the baby was sleeping. I was prepared for a normal labor but it turned out different. Normal amniotic fluid is clear and relatively odorless, but mine was colored. Green- or brown-tinged fluid usually indicates that the baby has passed meconium (stool formed before birth that is normally released after birth in the first bowel movement). This can be a sign that the baby is under stress. Occasionally, a baby may breathe the fluid into the lungs, which may result in serious breathing problems (meconium aspiration syndrome) that require prompt treatment.

So I was sent directly to the surgery room for an emergency c-cut. What can I say I was so disappointed, I felt like I had done something wrong. I was so much looking forward for participating in Lucia’s arrival to this world. And then, everything went so fast, I just remember someone telling me everything was going to be fine, I remember David, I guess once the operation was over and then the observation room.

I cried, 9 months waiting and no sign of my baby or David. My body was in pain, but what hurted most, was that I felt like a part of me had been stolen.

But when I first saw her, it was like the pain vanished and nothing else mattered. My little angel, my baby, finally we were face to face.